Violated

Well, it's taken me some time to sit here and write about what happened to me Monday night.

It pisses me off that someone took it upon themselves to enter my home, univited, and do the stuff that was done. First, just going in...next taking a shit in front of my refrigerator. Was that a message...like shit on you for not having any money or good food in the freezer? Who knows. My freezer was raided and 80% of food taken or left out to thaw. One thing I know is that the thief must not like califlower. Both packages were left behind. One on the table, the other on top of the refrigerator. Nor, open packages..The Skinny Cow ice cream sandwiches were left melted on the table.

How Monday night unfolded...first, lucky for me...don't ask why I say lucky, because no luck was there at home when I arrived...I got home just before 10:00pm...lucky it was not 3 or 4 in the am. I am walking to my back door and I notice a set of footprints and what looks like bike tracks going to my backyard. I remember thinking that's strange...see we just had some fresh snow, not much, but enough that prints were left. I step up on the back porch and it's eeire, because I do not see a white door looking at me through the storm door. I see inside my house. Not a good feeling. I open the storm door and step in...I am thinking I know I shut this door when I left this morning...I know I did...then I look to the left and I see the door to my kitchen is open...well I KNOW, for a fact, that was closed. It is closed all the time. See, I have three cats. And two of them do not get along. So, one stays in the basement and the other two on the main floor. I could also see my freezer door was open...well, I backed myself out of the house, and somehow made it to my car and locked myself in. Call 911...breathe...call 911 breathe...I was hyperventalating...and all I could think about was what if they are still in there? What about my cats? What about that brand new freakin' laptop that I just bought? Finally, I get through to the city 911...they take the information...and say they will have a car out as soon as possible? soon as possible..what's with that? Don't they get it? Someone may still be in there...I call my neighbor as I see her lights are on. She wants me to come in and wait there. I do. Why are the police not coming? It's been 20 minutes. I am finally breathing normally...Now it's been a half hour..now I am thinking why did I drink all that water...I have to pee...I cannot pee here. It's been more than 30 minutes. Time to call them again. 911 tells me "They know" they will be there as soon as they can. about 50 minutes after my first call, I get a call from another friend whose brother just called him to tell him that police were on the way. He has a police scanner and that was the first call out on it.

I go outside and the officer comes up and tells me to stay in their house. She was waiting for backup and they would go in my house to check and see if anyone still is in there. They come back in a couple minutes and she wants me to go with her. To see what is missing in my house.

How the hell do I know. Shit is thrown all over the place. I look for the new 19" flat screen TV/computer monitor I recently bought. It had been sitting in the corner, by the stove...gone...I just see shit all over the place..not physical shit, like what was left in front of my refrigerator. But all my stuff has been tossed all over. I cannot find the remote to my lights, so we are navigating around in the dark, with her flashlight. I go to the front porch...more stuff thrown all over the place..how can I tell if anything is missing???

Next, I think..laptop...go to the bedroom and there it is...sitting on my bed..well, that's nice. They left that...but all my drawers were open dumped on the floor, my bed, all over the place. Well, I am relieved about the laptop...but the house is a mess. Stuff strewn all over the place..from the closets, the shelves..Unimaginable.

Nothing else big was missing, that I could tell, anyways. Who knows on the small stuff. What kind of jewelry did I have in my jewelry box? I don't know..it's been several years since I wore any. I do know it wasn't expensive...

So, all I want to do is get out of there. I had made plans to spend the night at Jerry and Earl's..so I ran down to the basement...which pretty much looked untouched...who knows though..I have to get down there and go through the stuff. Went to the dryer and grabbed some clothes and went up the stairs, with the officer.

She suggests that I call and get the locks changed..that Home Depot is open 24 hours for this. Well, I for one, did not think I wanted to shell out the $$ for a midnight service call, so I decided to turn the outside lights on and lock both the deadbolt and the regular lock. She asked me about who might have keys to my house..might I have left the house unlocked...stuff like that. Like in the condition my mind was in, I would know?

I know I make a habit of double checking the door every time I leave to make sure it's locked. I know I didn't make a habit of using a deadbolt. I knew that I have a doggie door, that was latched from the inside. And MOST OF ALL I KNEW someone had been in my house, UNIVITED!!

Well, I cannot do anything more, so I walk to the car and drive to Jerry and Earl's. We talk for a bit and then go to bed. I cannot sleep. I get up 4 or 5 times to pee...after all I did drink like 24 waters that day..I remember seeing 2:57AM on the clock. I jumped at every outside sound. I lay awake after a mini nightmares. Finally, it's time to get up. It's light outside. I grab my clothes and decide to head home. I want to see what it looks like in the daylight. I look around and just shake my head. I do find all three of my cats. One was locked out on the front porch, the other two came to me, when I here "kitty, kittied". I went and got into the shower, thinking about everything I would be clearing out. I was going to throw out everything that was not being used, or have plans for using. As I go to reach for my shampoo, it's not there. I think, what the F?? Where is it? I start looking and I see all the body wash stuff is gone. That's great...what kind of thief leaves a laptop, but takes shampoo? A dirty one? A shitty one? Who knows. I finish up, not washing my hair, and get dressed and out of there.

I go to Home Depot and buy new locks and deadbolts.. Also, I buy a dusk to dawn thing to put in my light socket over the back door. And industrial strength garbage bags...I am getting rid of everything in there...that I can. All food, toothbrushes, toothpaste...all of it. Trash...I will have a clean empty house. That remains lit up at all times. And the TV blaring, too.

I planned to do a night of cleaning and then sleep today. But, I was so exhausted from not sleeping the night before that I decided to find a cheap hotel and spend the night there. I checked in about 4pm yesterday and slept a couple hours. Then, up and went and got something to eat, then stopped at KMart and bought some shampoo, toothbrushes, dental floss, mouthwash...all that stuff..and a new pair of jeans. Three sizes smaller than I have been wearing. I am amazed. And on clearance, too. So, then back to the hotel and watch the Biggest Loser. Then, I call it a night and sleep like a baby. Triple locked in my room..no one is gonna get me. No one.

Tonight I am planning on staying at my house. I am nervous, and scared. But I have to stay there, sometime, right? I don't know how I am going to get through this.

I have too. I have to remember I live with 3 cats. That's not gonna change. I can only make myself safer. Gonna look into getting an alarm system, too.

Violated. Sucks. Hope whoever did this, dies...soon..or better yet, gets violated. Maybe next house that this thief hits, has something hit him/her first.

Bitter. Yes. Very. My life has been changed. By some asshole(s). For what? Food? Shampoo? A TV? Sucks.