I am not not wanting to do anything right now. I just want to crawl up and go to sleep somewhere. Not that I am tired. I did get lots of sleep last night. I just ate some shit that I was not really good for me. Those cookies...and then that 1/2 of pasties.
I am so sick to my stomach. Why did I do that? I was overhungry, granted. But the fear I felt when I went and did that posting. I was scared to death someone was going to come out of that house and "get me". I wonder if I am going to ever be myself again? I cannot go up to a friggin house and tape a document to it? My gosh, that's gotta be a simple thing to do.
What am I going to do? I cannot live this way. Will the fear subside? It just sucks that some stupid ass(s) could do this and make me live in fear. I used to be pretty fearless. Now..my own shadow scares me. I have got to get through this...I cannot let this affect me this way.
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It will get better with time. If you are having a lot of anxiety and it is affecting your life, you may want to talk to your doctor.
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